Adam dan Hawa episode 40

By now fo shizzle semua dah tahu drama adam dan hawa tu. I came to know about it pon when ramai sangat orang dok kecoh2 kat facebook, especially penggemar novel. So should know that Adam dan Hawa tu based on a novel lah. Macam ombak rendu, gemersik kelabu, nora elena and so on. Saya bukan penggemar novel chenta tegar. Tapi kalo org bising kata based on the novel, it's going to be a good drama, i can't help but to watch la. Nak tengok apa yang sodap sgt.

Maka kalau ikotkan rating mak yang tak minat novel cinta, nora elena is krappo. But I could still watch and follow sinetron tu. Gemersik kalbu is macam haram. Terasa malu sendiri antara tengok dan tak tengok. Casting fail. I don't know whether I don't like the character or i don't like Ayu Raudah yang bagai di pam2 dkt flat screen tv per se. Kemanjaan mu, karakter mu dan kebulatan segala apa di badan mu bagai menggamit tangan ku nak baling selipar. Sori sakit mata, tak mampu tgk. Bukan anti bulat. Boley je tgk drama pompuan bulat yg slalu berlakon drama tv9. No hal. it's just that kemanjaan dan cebikan mu bagai dibuat2. Daku meluat2. Plot pon cliche macam nora elena. Perlulah rogol perempuan pasal ko sayang sangat. Bukan pasal ko horny sangat eh. Ke lautlah moral org Melayu jika di potray sebegini rupa.

Ombak rindu ai tengok mcm.. u know, u give me a thick book. And I flip it quickly cover to cover. Huruf pon tak nampak. Bayang2 je muka surat dan kipasan angin je la menyapu muka. Tengok sambil lalu. I just think Maya Karin berlakon buat2. maybe a little bit overacting. Ada je orang berlakon sdeyh yang tak nampak dibuat. But Lisa Surihani superb lah. She can make you love her and hate her. Ini namanya pandai berlakon. At first, I wouldn't think that she could nail it. She's just the girl next door all this while. Berjaya menjiwai watak mengada2 dalam Ombak rendu.

Ok. enough about that. Masuk pasal Adam dan Hawa. The only way I could watch sinetron ni ony on some links provided by some blogs. Nak cari youtube, gagal. What brings me to this drama? All the hoo-haa on facebook la. First 3 episodes agak menyekik, kata org ganu. I have this perception mcm org lain gak. Takde heroin lain ke ko nak amik? So only after 3 episodes, I had a hiatus from that drama. Tak kuasa nak bukak internet melayan drama melayu kan. Tapi earlier this week, I continued watching the drama while doing my work at night. Udahnya tersangkut pulak. Udahnya malam2 tak miss tgk.

What makes me glued to this drama? Here goes the list:

1. The previously not so pretty leading lady who turned out to be beautiful after all.

2. The plot. Though cuba drag sampai puluhan episode ala2 sinetron indon or telenovela amareka selatan, tp i rarely see any irrelevant plot yang sengaja dimasukkan untuk memanjangkan cerita. Takde dialog2 bodoh yang takde kena mengena. Kalo ada flashback, they don't just simply reuse plots that already been shown. Instead they show different dialogs. Kalo ikotkan drama lain, dalam masa 20 menet tu, 15 menet was allocated for recycled plots from last week show.

3. Sinematografi. Lepak. Takde berenti keta mahal ckp tepi jalan tgh2 panas. Mcm kehidupan harian. Takde la nak brekpas pakai kot kan. Or pakai baju pilot pegi dating semata2 nk tunjuk Adam Mukhriz tu pilot. Pakai baju pilot masa dekat airport je la. Takde pretentious shot ala Kabir Baktiar; cantik tp pretentious. Yang cuba2 meniru shot ala KB buatkan hati rasa meluWAT. Takde shot muka zoom in, zoom out, just nak emphasize ekpresi pelakon. Takde shot mimik2 muka yang mencebik2 mengada, membencikan. Takde shot muka yang letak lampu dari bawah, just nak tunjuk muka jahat macam setan si antagonis. This one is really new. It was in a drama so called Putera Rayyan. haha. Funny shitz, man!

4. Great casting. First time in drama melayu that I find casting people really do their job.Semua lepak and au naturale. Depa pilih Ain Hawani budak kampung yang kurus keding to potray an innocent SPM leaver and a 26 yo lecturer. Cuba imagine kalo amik Siti Saleha. Kampung la sangat muka tu. Cuba amik Rozita Che Wan semata2 cuba nak naikkan rating. Muda la sangat kan, mentang2 pakai Safi Rania gold ngan korset 2-3 lapis yang menolak payudara sampai ke dagu. Tu aku quote cousin aku. Cuba amik Nora Danish. Dia boleh bawak karakter end of spectrum je. Either happy sangat or sedih sangat. Happy or sedih yang lepak... hm takpala. Sakit mata I. 

Watak member Ain, si Azie tu yg kebudak2an tu pon kena ngn pelakon Spore tu. Tak over sgt. Looks natural to me. Kalo ikot trend drama yang cuba kurangkan kos and amik pelakon mid 30 mcm Watie elite to play that karakter, oh mak sungguh2 tak sanggup. Tahula dagu runcing. Tapi aahhh maluuuuuuu. Rasa nak makan kasutttt! Watak mak2 pon  sgt kena dgn semua mak2 dalam citer tu. Orang kaya not too pretentious. Orang kampung mmg muka humble. Adik Ain yang sekolah menengah pon mmg mcm budak sekolah la. Again it wasn't Watie elite yang berlakon jadi budak sekolah menengah. hahaha. Ngeriiii weiii! and Aaron Aziz... dreamy as usual. hmmmm. Cuma the way the pronounce Australia.. Ostoliaaa... haha. Okla. Orang kampung. haha. wahahahahaha.

That's what I could think of for now. I know it's mainly about the drama. Tapi sebagus mana pon novel tu. kalo drama fail, ingat ada orang nak tengok keerrr??? Ok mmg ada. But not me lah. Buat tambah dosa aku je nanti. K lah. nak continue to episod 40 daaa.

Etika pekedai/ peruncit dan pekerja mereka di Malaysia

Etika? Do they even have them? Malaysian among the polite nations in the world? Now kemon! Who are you kidding with. People can you please be honest with the questionaire? Jangan menipu boley? Malaysia is supposed to be at the lowest ranking both for their politeness and and sex drive. Heck, so far itu saja yg asik kua masuk berita hairan and whatnot when it comes to worldwide ranking. Now analyze this:

Politeness. What do you consider as polite? Think for a moment at least one trait that you could find in almost every malaysian that makes you say oh you're so polite! Pikir sampai tertido2. Agak sukar di situ ye. Aku malas nak bash bangsa sendiri. Tp bila ingat2 blk buat rasa nak maki hamun je sekor2. But then let's turn this into a positive bebelan. Instead of bashing bangsa sendiri, baik aku puji orang laen.

Saya belajar di tennessee for 4 years. Tahu x kat mana tu? Tahu tak betapa kampung nya ia? Tahu tak org suka nganjing tpt tu ramai redneck, kampung koboi. Ye, ia tidak se urban nyc, tak sebandar LA. Tp sekolah i is the most expensive private school. Yang belajar kat situ semua gentlemen from all over the states. Not just for southener. Mereka kalo msk building nampak i menapak lg 10 menet nak sampai, they would hold the door for us, ladies. Dah masuk building, tunggu pulak elevator. Pegang pulak pintu elevator tak nak bagi i tejepit. Orang malaysia hado mcm tu? Bkn non hado. Harus ada walau sekelumit. Tp yang ramai, cepat2 lari msk. Masuk lift ditekan2 sampAi berlobang butang tutup pintu lif.

Put tht aside. Bukan nk bebel sgt pasal ni. Tp sopan is the one vital thing yang patut ada pada orang bekerja jumpa2 orang, especially salesgirl, org jaga till or cashier. Tp di mana kesopanan anda? Ke laut! Selalu yang biasa didengar orang yang pernah tinggal di oberdesi, they have never encountered shopping experience like one in malaysia. Where you were being followed like you're gonna get caught for shoplifting anytime. So far that's not the case, even in the US or UK or even some other Europe countries i have ever been to. Not to say i ni org kaya pi shopping oberdesi je. Aku student jalan2 pakai selekeh je. But i was free to go in and out of shops, malls and even LV store in champ elysees. Bukan beli pon. Try2 barang berangan kaya mcm rosmah. Rambut je tak setinggi rosmah. takde org nk mengekor mcm anak kucin kehilangan ibu dan sumber susunye. (nice words i use eh. Nak je aku ckp mcm hanjing yg mengekor!)

Kalo beli barang runcit, pegi kedai uncle tepi jln ilkeston was always fun. Bukan niat nak mengejek, but the uncle has a cute way of greeting people. Thank you very moooocchhhhh. Kalo kat malaysia, aku tahu la ko lapar, letih berdiri. Ko pggl kawan ko ganti kejap boley x sementara ko mentekedarah or gi bergolek. Aku benci tgk muka ko moncong! Kalo tak tahan jgn keja depan org. Kalo org endon, bangla dtg conquer semua meroyan. Takde keja utk local katanya.

Kalo nak cari barang pon susah. Kalo tanya pekerja lagi susah dari cari sendiri, baik aku bukak kedai sendiri. Cari dlm kedai sendiri. At least aku tahu kat mana aku letak barang. Yang lagi hangin semalam kebebalan yang nyata berlaku. Beli barang, tak boley cancel. Ok lemme elaborate. Aku pergi speedmart jelatek kt bawah tu. Tzk jauh. Jalan kaki je kat bawah rumah. Sambil2 bawak anak jalan2. Orang jalan2 kat bawah rumah, ta, plan nak beli belahbawak duit ribu2 ke? Aku bawak hapa yang hado la kan.

Aku masuk speedmart, aku amik satu extension cord, satu biskut hannah. Bawak pergi till, or org mesia panggil cashier. Dah scan, total rm22. Aku bukak beg gabak tp kosong, tgk2 ada not 10 and a bunch of not 1 rm. Kira2 aku ada rm 18. So aku ckp dkt minachi, i nak extension cord, i nk kensel beskut. Minachi kata gak boley kensel. Now now. Who are you kidding with minachi? Aku dh pergi dari sekecik2 kedai roncit ke sebesar2 store. Ko baru kua kandang lembuke? Baru dpt keja? Ko baru register scan benda tu. Enter pon belom. Duit aku x bagi pon lagi. Dah mmg aku tak cukop duit, ko nk aku buat hapa bodo? Org dh beratur ramai kt blkg. Nasib baik aku x glabah.

Aku dh pergi sebesar2 walmart la wei. Berganda2 besar dr speedmart yg ko jadi balachi. I've seen people took tens of stuff and canceled some. Returned half eaten bread. I've seen worse. Takde masalah la stakat nak kensel barang satu pasal aku x cukop 4 hengget. Bukan aku x mampu. And aku tak perlu buktikan aku mampu beli pon. I know my rights. Si minachi boley pulak panggil supervisor yg mmg nyata depan mata. But then perkara yang membezakan mentaliti dan keperibadian orang malaysia dan orang amareka berlaku. Minachi ckp dpn2 orang beratur ramai "bang, kensel barang. Dia tak cukop duit".

Aku mmg tak malu. Aku tahu hak aku. Ko scan je. Aku tahu ko boley kensel. Mmg aku tak cukop duit. But i dont need reason to cancel my purchase do i? I havent even purchased it. Baru in the process. Ko ingat aku bodo ke? Ko kata tak boleh scan? Sedangkan orang dh bayar pon boley return. Apa lagi org belom bayar. Boley jer kensel. If i were in the US, they would have done it as discreet as possible. Not to hummiliate the customer. Even if the customer himself sometimes like to attract attention and hummiliate himself, esp d redneck. Haha. Kalo org lain, they would have done something to prove that they coukd afford that total of rm22. To me, that minachi is not worth my second. Takda masa nak berlari2 naik rumah amik duit and turun blk. She is just not worth it. And i know my value. Takde guna bergaduh dgn org bodoh.

So malaysian pls. Most polite nation, my arse. Change your mindset and the way you're working first before you take up and answer the questionnaires. Tak payah susah2 nak menipu. Itu pon dah cukop memaluka.

duniawi sungguh

berabuk gell blog ni. o well even i grow grapes now, i dont really have time to type a new entry. i prefer twitter nowadays. easy to access from the phone, dont really have to write a long ass essay, and can even tweet while nursing the baby. jejejejejej. tmi eyh?

what am i doing here at 2 am? i had too much sleep already. apparently you dont have to exactly follow the saying; you should be napping too when the baby is sleeping. this holds true when your baby is fussy. unlike mine, budak ni sleep through the nite, maybe a little fussy during the day. but hey, tak kaco tido mlm pon kan. so nak jadi hapa kalo siang malam pon aku nk tido mcm baby. ponin pala den.

but then again, i had a low bp for the past few days. so dah ponin nk pitam2 siang tadi den tido skali ngan bayi den lah. pastu pulak bayi den nk tido kui 9 tadi terikot sama. kekeke. nak muntah pulak tido byk2 ni. enough bout the baby already.

anda kenal neelofa? ore klate tu. bia dok sekapom pom, tp kawe banggo ore comey spo dio ore kelate. bangga ka? i like to see pretty women like neelofa to some extent. to what extent, u might wonder? and why i choose neelofa as example? pasal die mmg santek. duh! and die sgt sedapp. kalo i yg gegel ni rasa neelofa itu sedap dilihat, mungkin lebih sedap digigit, apa lg lelaki2 lain. hahaha. 

ive met her once doing groceries with hans isaac at cold storage ge mall, masa kedai dh nak tutup pon. lawa mcm patung barbie. mlm2 buta pon bedak ber enchi2. u know barbie doll? not just santek. cukop inchi sume. haha. wahaha. pastu last sunday she was on the cover of panca indera. mmg santek lah dgn baju ketat gelemat posing maut, mau terjojol bijik mata meleleh air lio mat2 perverts. ok now back to the question to what extent do i like to see her? 

i love to see pretty gals wearing poke eye outfit (oh yes, the poke-eye term does exist. go ask ppl at mindef. haha) til they scare the crap out of me dan timbul perasaan kasihan. why scared then pity summore ley? i got scared to think peha putih gebu rozita che wan dan badan berbonjol2 neelofa di barbeku kelak. kesian kot santek2 jadi bahan bakar. not tht im that pious alim tutup litup  berpurdah bagai pon. tp perasaan takut tu cukop la nk buat aku turun bawah pakai tudung bibik 2-3 harini. hahah. kalo tak menggerbang jugak rambut rosak keras berdawai stakat turun nk buang sampah or bawak mek jalan2 tgk dunia yg penuh pak arab, pak itam, pak paki, cina bukit kt bawah nun, which most of the time aku usung budak yg tido je. buang maso den ajo bwk budak tido jalan.

tp tulah. melayu mudah lupa. skali tgk, skali takut, skali teringat. kekekek. hm dh la. nak salin diaper budak pulak.

p/s: ok lg scary shit kalo tgk budak ni bgn sdiri mlm2 lookin at a corner tesengih sorg2. 

stupidos shouldn't be alive

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2011&dt=1030&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Keluarga&pg=ke_02.htm

Pelbagai cara elak kehamilan

Soalan:

Saya ada satu kemusykilan di sini, adakah isteri saya boleh mengandung jika semasa mengadakan hubungan seks dengan dia tidak membuka seluar dan juga dia juga memakai seluar dalam serta panty liner. Kami hanya bermain secara luaran sahaja hingga mencapai kepuasan hingga saya klimaks. Ini kerana dia tidak mahu ada anak lagi dan masih sambung belajar dengan alasan dia tidak mahu ada anak kerana takut dia terpaksa menangguhkan pelajarannya. Saya harap doktor dapat membantu kemusykilan saya ini.

- R, Utara.

Oh dear Lord, 

hapa yg bodo sgt generasi zaman sekaranggggg??!!!! seriously ive come across this kind of stupid questions not once, not twice, not even ten times. more than that! and yes i like to torture myself pi tgk juga hapa la si bodo2 ni nak tanyakan even though it's just the same old stupid question, dipelbagaikan cara ayatnya.

budak2 ni tak skolah ke apa? subjek pembiakan has been long discussed when i was in form 3.  nak detail lagi form 4 in biology la kot. it's a long awaited subject by students. kecik2 tanak mampos. org suh skolah ko sebok nak menggatal. tu yg ramai cetek akal buang anak skrg. kalo malas nak bukak buku, apa ko tak reti gugel ke? org skrg pakai smartfon, ko pon nak pakai smartfon. tp diri tak smart2 jugak. info di hujung jari. bini sambung mengaji konon. tanak beranak dulu konon. yeye jekkk 'bini' lah kannnn. sambung mengaji lah kannnn. bende simple mcm tu tak reti. org tak jual durex, trojan kat 7-e for nothing la. sungguh meneyedihkan manusia zaman skrg.

ya Allah give the strength ngaja anak aku in future. mintak jauh le zuriat aku jadi part of this stupid sinful stats. haihhhhh.

thank you nora elena...

i've watched few tacky malay dramas before nora elena. even before that i've watched top chef when i wasn't into those 7pm drama yg gagal. (not that i have any interest pon. just left the show running for entertainment purpose during ghorib-bole ) none of those have the same impact as nora elena. not even lakonan kayu putri sarah and that annoying lady aside putri sarah whose acting was a sore to my eye, in the drama before tv3 started to show nora elena, was able to give a life changing moment like this. 

ive always been watchin tv in the evening and would stop only when the news came up, to shower, pray and what not. yes i have the tendency to perform maghrib close to isyak. 2-in-1 or combo always good maa. it's like having combo meal. everyone loves combo meal waaat. haha. for the first time after months or maybe years of doing so, today i had a strong determination of performing maghrib prayer in time. all because of nora elena. again thanks a lot to the well-watched drama which gains probably millions of viewers.

if it wasnt because of perasaan jelek yg teramat yg timbul from watching the said drama, i would have continued to do combo prayer. i even managed to qada' isyak brapa bulan lepas yg tertinggal kerana kemengantukan yg teramat sangat. hahaha. not that im saying aku ni bagus sangatttt. tp jelek yg amat dgn drama kerana manusia yang kebanyakan nya perempuan idolize the role of seth tan played by aaron aziz.

u need to get ur facts and views straighten up, ppl. whom u love is aaron aziz, not ahmad seth tan, coz:

1. from the beginning, seth tan even though it might not be intentional but obviously dia kacau tunang orang. dah tau tunang orang, still nak get close as if the lady is still in the market. but then again, it's a role of a muslim convert who doesn't practise the religion. ore klatam kata jahil tukil.

2. drama yg dicedok dr novel kasih yang suci ni berkisarkan gadis yang diperkosa semasa remaja oleh cik abe seth tan yang menyesal kemudian ingin menebus kesalahan dengan ikatan perkahwinan yang suci. it's mainly kasih yang suci yang ingin dipupuk after marriage lah kot since at first nora elena was so in love with former tunang and not at all interested with seth tan.

3. let us imagine the role of seth tan was played by someone like johan raja lawak and the former tunang is still played by abg gagah bf abby abadi, si whatever-his-name-is. would you still wait patiently and passionately for the drama every evening? would you still call it kasih yang suci. some of you maybe on eid's side (the former tunang), got really mad at seth tan for breaking the pretty and made-for-each-other loverbirds. banding ngan johan raja lawak as seth tan, of kos la eid yg hensem lagi gagah perkasa lebih seswai dgn elena kan.

4. masa tu whatever sweet thing ahmad seth-johan-tan do will no longer be so schuweeetttttt rasa macam nak kawen malam ni jugak. hahaha.

5. kamon girls. berpijak di bumi yg nyata pls. jantan sepakej mcm seth tan tak wujud kot or agak rare earth gitu. terlampau bermimpi anda mungkin keciwa. thts why ive stopped reading novels like ths since f3. i was a big fan of ahadiat akashah. luckily i didnt spend that much on his books. id prefer borrow the books from rich friends who has a library of books like that. and i must admit i was a lil bit keciwa when i got into a boarding school as my life tidak seceria dalam novel2. haha. thts wat happened when u got too carried away.

6. ok maybe you're not as stupid as i deemed you to be. but pls stop putting up your status about seth tan on facebook. u make wanna puke in my mouth. haha thts how jelek sejelek-jelek nya i feel.

7. but then again, jelik ni la yg buat kawam semayam on time and gain pahala lebih sket for malam jumaat yg indah ini. whahahaahah.

8. saya percaya saya mungkin dibenci selepas ini. keh keh,

cukup.. cukup lah..

today i went through some sort of divine intervention. hehe tade divine intervention manenye lah. it's just that i came to a realization. normally after each prayer i'd pray for what most people ask for from  Allah, Tuhan yang tidak memungkiri janji, and that includes getting a better job with a big pay.

and this morning i came to question myself how big of a salary is actually big. how do you define a big salary. as for me, i have no specific number for that as i know God knows best and He knows what's best for me. when u dont have an idea of how much a big pay is to u, tht will be a bit of a problem later. that is if iman anda senipis kulit bawang mcm kawam. u tend to compare with what your peers are making and the feeling of dissatisfaction will slowly creep in. 

yes i admit that my last pay was below my expectation. i merely accepted the job in the first place since i needed money for my 9-mth-wedding-preparation. however, how so very small my pay deemed to be (or at least to me), i managed to save enough money for the wedding, and to buy brg hantaran, with some help from family of course. but what most important is i didnt owe any bank just to get married. i dont even have a credit card. the fact that i dont shop like crazy like most women do also helps. oh yeah i am very the kemut in that sense but i dont care. i ony buy wat's necessary without ignoring my appetite for good food. i seriously cant help it. haha. and with that pay i believe i can afford to pay for housing loan right after i dont have to save for wedding anymore lah kan.

when u dont have any specific number in mind, o believe me even if u earn a really big salary it will never be enough. this holds true to some people if not all. i've seen someone with 3 children in public school, earning 5-figure monthly salary still fretting over the money he'd have to fork out once the new school term began. seriously pakcik. where have all your money gone? i dont see you're driving a fancy car. your earnings should be able to cover your house loan. unless ko ade seploh bijik rumah. plus, you're not the sole breadwinner pon. if that's the case, i wont be able to even get married, let alone start a family with my pay now. haihhhh.

now that only i realize about it,  i might need to make some changes in my daily prayer. instead of saying oh dear Lord, please grant my wish. help me get a job with big pay, i should have said i hope to get a job that i love doing with a good salary enough for everything, enough to get going with my new life, new family. enough is the word. it helps you getting the satisfaction you seek. you might get lower salary than your peers, as long as it is enough to pay your bills, to buy necessities, to pay your due, then why fret? rezki Allah dtg in different ways. it might not come as a big sum of cash.

as a mean version of me would say, o that's just the saying of someone who couldn't do better. haha. erm maybe. or maybe not. at least kawam cube bersyukur dgn apa yg ada here. haha. wahahaha.

speaking of enough, my mom told me about some makcik she knew who worked at a canteen. once this makcik who was pregnant at the time saw a kid with tangan kudung and was taken aback. makcik ckp mintak2 anak aku lebih. i met her daughter when i was a kid. mmg lebih lah. it could be kebetulan maupon suratan. but you seriously need to really beware of what u wish for. 

p/s: i ve been having headache/migraine since yesterday. i am so thankful it's gone now. wohhhoooo.

randomness

why the randomness? i have few things on mind that i dont wish to elaborate much.

1. dayumn manihhh nye satay semalam. satay manis, kuah manis. melekat kat lidah sampai pagi ni. mau nye tak kencing manih, kecimase kawam.
2. i am growing some fat not muscles. it's becoming harder and harder to maintain your weight or to lose even a kilo after 25. 
3. dialog erra fazira awak, awak, awak membingitkan telinga terngiang2 di kepala. the way she pronounced it dengan penuh mengada2 sungguh menjengkelkan. the same cant be said to 'awok' usop wilcha. damn funneyh lerr that marketing guy for O&G co. can u believe tht.
4. speaking of sumsin' funny. tetibe teringat cerita someone quite close to me yg bwk org pi berubat. the person yg nak diubatkan tetibe hilang bila smpi tpt tok bomoh but muncul when it was time to go home. dah sampai rumah die mengomel sorang2.. "tajweed pon tonggang-langgang, ade hati nak obatkan aku.." hahaha. quite cheeky setan ni kan. so rakan2 kalo nk jumpa tok bomoh tradisional make sure ayat2 tu from al-Quran yg dibaca dengan betol tajweed dan sanadnya. kalo nk tahu betol ke tak tajweed depa, apa kata korag betolkan korang punye dulu. kecik2 dulu ustat nk rotan ekau lari. agak2 ustat amirul tu boley berubat secara efisyen tak? untung sapa dapek. mmg all-rounders la.

boleh ttak nak wek kan satay semlm. hm -_-